observations...

well busy giler sekarang
lebeh gile dari time study dulu
so maafkanla saye yang dah jarang nak update pasal Supernatural nih...
sangat susah nak concentrate bila tengok sebab badan dah penat, my mind is almost dying n oddly enough my will almost sinking but still saye masih cuba ikhlaskan diri pikul amanah dalam mencari rezeki halal (eceh)

tapi saye x pernah miss 1 episode pon lagi ye ^^~ HUHUHUUUU

for those yg x taw, saye dah berkerja dlm bidang customer service

n yea i know memang xde kaitan langsung dgn ape yg saye amek masa kat UMS dulu

so bila dah kerja macam ni n menghadap pelbagai jenis manusia, saye boleh simpulkan beberapa benda

# rakyat Malaysia x suka terima perubahan walaupun baik
      kat sini memang saye nampak sangat2... nak2 orang2 yg berumur.... well dorg tak percayakan perubahan n takut kalau perubahan tu merosakkan/rugikan dorg...
yes i understand the paranoia that Malaysian have.. but tho they see the prove that the change wasnt so bad n actually improved their life n make things easier, they dont accept change... some were skeptical, some were hesitate n some were NEVER WANT to accept... kadang2 kita pulak yang dimarah walaupun kita actually try to help

# rakyat Malaysia malas membaca n menulis
      no offence peps, before this i myself feel offended by the statement but then i see it with my own freakin eyes... kalau pakcik2 n makcik2 yang dah tua tapi x nampak ni saye faham jugak, ni yang masing2 i/c dorg depan dia 90, 91, 92...etc
kadang2 annoying pulak rasa sbb bila dorg mintak tolong isikan form sebab x suka pegang pen n malas nak  menulis... n bila suruh baca terms n conditions dorg suruh jugak terangkan sebab malas nak baca then pertikaikan almost everything...

#rakyat Malaysia sangat sinis bila kedudukan dia lebih tinggi dari org lain
      okay yang ni x semua but enough to say yang it happens a lot to me as i am so stupid... i mean i admit i am new but it is so annoying (n sometimes i feel insulted) when they say "baik u confirmkan betul2... selalunya trainee ni bodoh"
walaupun some might cut me some slack but sangat annoying n it's getting on my nerve bila org start panggil someone else whe assist them bodoh...

#rakyat Malaysia selalu anggap bila bertanya means BODOH
        i'm sorry for asking people alot coz it's my job.. i am not some mind reader do know anyone so that's why i ask... but all i got back either "you ni tahu buat kerja ke tak", "i dont like stupid question" etc...
belum masuk yang dengan sinis nya pertikaikan sape saye... memang irritating sangat

#what they wear doesnt reflect who n what they are
         again i'm sorry... i dont judge people from their appearance but usually u always processing some impression on how they look like when someone wearing jubah n serban, ur first impression must thinking he is might be polite, cakap lembut n nice... i mean let put aside if i find the "nur" on that person face
but then it turns out to be he curses everyone alot, leave insulting comments n nothing is nice about it...
again i am so sorry for bring this things up

i think there might be more but right now this is all come out.. maybe there's part 2 coming... who knew?

well that's that
papai

be careful of what u not wish for..

well i am not human behavior observer tho i am surrounded by humans... senang cakap i am really born into the society and raised in many societies but i guess i'm proud to say i am not easily got influenced by them..

from the beginning i always so sure with all i want to be, have aim and tho most of the time i always on the right track, i always get back on one... at least..

one of my drawings ^^~ (dikala bosan di kelas BI)

lately, i feel like i am very lost and realize i might get into the wrong train (now i am really poetic person kan? kan?).. i mean when i was little, art is always my passion (who would have thought right?) especially i am always love to draw, making myself creative n challenge myself to express new perspective so that when i decided to become a writer... but when it comes after PMR, since being not so smart looking is not an option, literature course is not an option. At 1st i was placed at pure science stream class but since idk physics better back then, i think my life would be over n since society always standardize art student as no vision n future (it's not really my opinion) and when i look at the other option, i decided to go to technical school to learn engineering drawing to become an architect coz it's one smart looking way to express creativity n my idea... i know i might have narrow view before but i consider myself as a field rat than a lab mouse so that's how that goes...

then time pass by, n i still want to be an architect but i guess i might slipped from my own rail leaving me with physics. weird right? so, then i get to know physics, doing research and everything, i think physics is another creative thinking path (in a nerd way according to my brother) n i decided to continue playing with the physics idea using my own method to discover gigantic thingy like the mystery behind the sound of aurora or become the next Stephen Hawking.

but then the fact remains i have my own goal, but i dont strive hard for it.... i made an option coz it's not the 1st time anymore so it's really never considered as a mistake...

after graduate, i still want to be a field mouse, working outside the office n not really tied by the formal attire rule but then again, i stranded in the island of the opposite..  not that i say my job is frustrating but the fact remains that i dont really enjoy being caged...

i know i should be grateful, at least i have a job but i guess when ppl said graduan terlalu memilih, i guess i am one of them... n as ummi said alah bisa tegal biasa so i try to do my best... yela, kan ke itu amanah untuk saye?

tetiba emo pulak kan?

okayla..
that's that
papai! ^^!