annoying (but i want to congrats Angah too) moment - feels like i want to drop F bombs everywhere :P

well things are started to get messy these days, first n foremost, ppl love to ask me when will i get married since i already get what i wanted (wearing topi kotak duhh!!) n angah already engaged to her boyfriend...

well truth to be told, since angah is about to get married, she kindda become the center of everything (i mean the adult stuffs - please dont read this in x-rated way btw) n since i am the oldest child in my family, getting left 1 step behind really an awkward moment. not that i'm jealous with her but idk, it probably the eldest thing - being left as unimportant is sucks!

i mean, i love my sometimes-i-live-in Peter Pan-world but it getting on my nerve lately on how ppl compare me with my sister n cousins who somehow sooner-or-later will follow angah's footstep on introducing their so-i-hope-with-my-finger-crossed soul mate. some are two years older than me n some are 5 years younger... i mean i just 23 for crying out loud! my parents dont say anything but when it come to society n "families", i kindda manusia x laku... just because i dont get home at 3 am every morning with any guys n continue "bertenggek" depan rumah doesnt mean i dont have social life

yeah, i dont socialize much like any teenagers but i never feel the need to do that, to me the right guy will come at the right time...

there's one incident where me n some ppl talking about how many guys she meet everyday n she kindda interviewed them n then one of the ppl said to her

"kenalkan la untuk along!"

and she kindda look at me ups n downs in (maybe i'm wrong but i could've sworn the way she looked at me) disgusted then she change the topic

i mean, yeah i'm no Miss World n when i said i'm waiting for Ben Burnley it just mean i'm kidding?

fine i wasnt perfect n tho they make a joke on my social life saying i might die alone it still hurts coz i have feelings too! i'm not Cass, i'm human okay!

as i said before i just 23, some ppl getting married at 50 so what's the big deal? i got family to be taken care of! Adik Izzati to be taken care of!

i might be single but i'm not desperate, so back off!

that's that

no need to get nasty dropping the F bombs everywhere...

so btw congrats Angah n her fiance, may both of u live happily ever after

papai

meeting long lost friend

well before everything, lemme clean this blog that full with spider's webs...

*clean*

*clean*

*clean*

*clean*

okay.... hope that's ok ^^~ hehehe

well actually i dont feel like writing much so lemme just show a pic n tell a lil this n that bout the pic

that's me n my ex-roomate, Kinah... nice optometrist (betul ke term ni Kinah?) to-be. Well story goes bila saye kena attend job interview like early in the morning with no preparation coz i really dunno i have a job interview until 2 hour before the interview *nice huh?*

so i just grab whatever look formal attire to me, my certificates n resume (n hoping i got the copy of them somewhere in the file) makeup in my handbag, n ready to go (by bus coz KL traffic is always a nightmare to me -no wonder i hate KL).. i put on my makeup in the bus n ran to Menara TM but the thing is idk anything or what position i'll be interview later on... all i know is i have to be there before 9 am

then this is when viva-moment-with-no-preparation came... just go with the flow... do or die... yada yada whatever

so waiting for my name to be called, i text my friend Kinah n lalink Anis (she didnt reply or pick up the phone until i'm in the komuter back to Seremban) n ask Kinah if she want to meet coz i didnt see her for almost 2 years n she said ok n we agreed to meet at Mid Valley Megamall

then after that, we went window shopping, makan2 (u know what happen when (very) long lost friend sit for lunch), jalan2, n then it's time to say goodbye again

to Kinah, thanks for meeting me, memang rindu Kinah sangat2 n hopefully next time Aisyah, Nisa n Izzati boleh join sekali ^^~

friendship forever ^^~

okay that's that, papai

the makeup lesson

After 2 weeks membebel akibat kemalasan saye keluar bersama-sama, akhirnya saye ikut jugak Marjorie n Leeya keluar walaupun malas masih bersarang... almaklumla, mood bermalasan masih tinggi

pagi kemarin bersamaan hari Jumaat, Marjorie datang jemput saye dengan keta baru (ayah dia bayar... hehe) dia.. memula banyak jugak alasan saye, lagipun, still pukul 0830... kami pon pegi kedai mamak

#FunFact: Marjorie sentiasa makan nasik lemak pagi2 tanpa miss walau sekali =P

rupa2nya Leeya dah tunggu, mesti dorg ni ada plan nih.. #hampeh sungguh main ambush saye pagi2..

sambil makan, masing2 mula bercerita, btw, Marjorie nak sambung belajar n Leeya pun sama just part time la... sambil2 tu Leeya merungut pasal budak2 ofis dia yang sangat2 suka merendah-rendahkan chubby-type girl mcm Leeya

kata Leeya

"aku taw la aku ni gemuk, tapi kenapa bila aku pakai make-up diorg kata aku salah tempat keje? bukannya tebal sangat makeup aku pakai"

for the record, Leeya x pernah pakai makeup bila pegi mana2 except compact powder n lip balm aje

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well Heidi can pull on w/o makeup and just walk outside n still
look pretty rite?

so, moral citer ni bukan saye nak blabbing about stop being such a jerk coz i believe i have posted about this like loooonnnggg ago but the make-up thingy...

to me, full on make-up face either tebal or not is subjective

simple equation, kalau org tu dah biasa pakai makeup, they will think (walaupun tebal) it just normal, not too much but kalau org x pernah pakai makeup, calit lipbalm pun dorg kata mcm joker (villain citer Batman ye)

saye teringat masa saye 15, at my young age, i dont get exposed much on makeup and one time i just put on some body powder at my face (super thin layer) n ppl start saying i do look different wearing makeup tho i actually just put some body powder, but now, tho i' wearing makeup, unless i go for crazy rave color of eyeshadow or super thick eyeliner, my ummi will goes, "cubala kamu pakai bedak sikit!! bukannya kamu budak2 lagi"

so temanya, just be u,

coz bila org yg x biasa pakai makeup, bila dia pakai, org akan cakap macam pakai topeng coz somehow she herself feel awkward with the her condition n kalau org terbiasa pakai makeup, bila x pakai makeup, org akan tegur muka dia pucat n everything...

susah kan nak puaskan mata semua orang?

so the lesson here is to hell with how people think of u

coz i always think that confident is always the best outer layer any girls can wear weather u with makeup or not

tebal or not the makeup to me is subjective

some ppl says they go with natural look but since other ppl cant see the process behind them, they might dont know how many layer of foundation, compact powder, concealer, loose powder etc they put on

i'd say this coz one of my friend, is so lucky coz she have the exact same shades of foundation and powder to her skin which many dont have including me. one time we want to go out together and while waiting for her to get ready, i actually saw her ongoing makeup process. well honestly, a pretty well flawless that look like dont-need-much is actually need way too many things to be done

and she ended up with effortless makeup job and she look natural tho it too almost half and hour to get ready

i mean i take like half an hour to put on makeup alone too so i told her why she need 30 minutes to look like just what u already look like?

so that's that
papai ^^~

sume gambar adalah dari pakcik gugel

unreasonable RM10

panas je hati!!

jarang saye beli makan pagi sejak saya balik ke tanah air (hehe) 

yela, klu kat KK, confirm2 la nak breakfast x sempat coz bangun2 je kena lari g kelas (pukul 10) 

tapi as my job is babysitting my sis at the hospital, i have to get myself breakfast

since idk where is the nearest cafeteria in this hospital, i went a little further outside the hospital area

menunggu dengan penuh sabar

so i bought my breakfast at mamak stall 

the wait for the food i ordered? like waiting for Dr Black Jack snapped out the anime world and ask me to be his Pinoko (minus the short figure)... owh btw i wast even ordered a steak that everybody know takes years to cook... i just ordered a friggin fried noodle n iced nescafe 

yet it took almost 1 hour and half to get my friggin breakfast and only 3 ppl in the restaurant..

then what shocked me more is that the overall price is RM10!!!

i mean WTF???

sabar ajela

if i knew i should just go and eat KFC or wait till i get home =_='

okla that's that

papai

12-12-12 is the day i learn something ^^~

saye masih belum start keje lagi walaupun dah almost 2 months saye graduate

ummi n ayah dah start bising2 n sampai satu tahap saye jadi macam manusia kena rasuk je (literally speaking) sbb xde issu lain n some mula mempertikaikan sebab saye blajar sampai dapat degree

antara sebab musabab lain yg buat dorg kata saye x dapat keje n org xna amek saye keje is sbb saye sangat GEMUK! susah nak bergerak coz trlalu berat!

*i mean WTF???* seriously?

worse? dorg kata sbb saye lambat habis belajar (dr kawan2 saye yg x sambung belajar) is saye dok kat UMS untuk makan aje

*double WTF??????*

but then today, saye ditugaskan bawak my sis (Anis) pegi klinik. lepas tu dia kena refer ke hospital coz doctor suspect dia ada apendiks (idk this spelling/term is right)

so saye pon driv dia ke KPJ, handle everything yg ada kaitan dengan my sis la dekat hospital tu n balik rumah, btw Anis kena admit masuk wad coz lpas tu kena operate buang appendiks tu

balik rumah, ambik ummi bawak pegi hospital, amik fatin dari keje, n then achik (bunyi mcm sikit tapi actually sangat banyak keje) and i do that all by myself coz ummi kena handle rumah utk angah punya upcoming engagement

masa doctor tu check anis, dia cakap

"nasib baik cuti sekolah, boleh jugak u teman adik u dtg sini"
saye reply "apa pulak kaitan cuti sekolah?"
"kalau u sekolah macam mana nak hantar adik u datang sini.. "
"saye dah lama habis sekolah la.."
"oh, saye ingat u baru habis SPM"

HAHA!! saye nampak muda!! ^^~

so then saye realized, banyak resume saye hantar n most of them rejected
tho most of the time i feel like loser but i think now saye nampak hikmah apa yg terjadi

i always said i want to help my family
n i always thought i can help them once i got a job n i feel like nothing else i can do before that but kata doctor tu jugak, if i didnt bring her sooner, apendiks tu boleh pecah n caused internal bleeding or something (i mean i'm not an expert) but long story short, it may become worse

so since everyone is busy, i guess my little help could help her

at least in the beautiful date (12/12/12), i learn that there's a reason why ALLAH still hold my future job to help my family, i actually need to start small n HE knows best

ALHAMDULILLAH ^^~

get well soon my sis

ok that's that
papai

human issue - stop crime in Palestine n save Gaza

saye bukan seorg aktivis atau extremist but i am human who have feelings

saye bukan nak cakap pasal diri saye tapi saye nak cakap pasal saudara2 saye yg seagama dgn saye hatta saye x kenal sorg pon nama dorg apatah lagi borak2 kosong dgn dorg

i mean how could us? dorg xde masa nak men2 ngan internet, tp xleh salahkn dorg gak, air bersih pon susah nak dapat, nikan pulak internet line

tp dorg ada free wifi with no disturbance xkira hujan, ribut, petir, peluru, bom, roket, etc.. yes a higher ALLAH the ALMIGHTY, yet how busy they are they still prey

kadang2 malu saye~~~ saye x cakap sape2, saye pon sama... entah2 paling teruk dalam semua umat

jujurnya i am not talking about current event, isu Palestine ni start even when i was born, even way before Salahuddin Ayyubi jadi sultan lagi  aka Saladin the person who free AlAqsa Mosque - but this is not from the Zion Jew but from Christian(correct me if i'm wrong here) and way even before that - senang cerita, Palestine ni sebuah tempat yang sentiasa jadi rebutan la x kira zaman cuma isu Palestine-Israel ni yg jd isu sekarg, sbb makhluk Zionis ni kejam tapi pengecut ya amat... baling batu, menyorok belakang taiko plak! (cakap mcm KL Gangster plak)... n if Hitler still alive now i am very sure his status as a mean murderer will change (i know i dont see him as a terror leader now n before - read the history)

it just isu ni akan jadi besar bila peluru berteknologi tinggi mula kena satu daerah Palestine atas alasan x masuk akal... sblm2 ni ada aje anjing2 Israel ni tangkap rakyat Palestine ni tanpa sebab, tp i guess it just daily basis story like any other day at work for us.. kita pun x nampak apa, mostly they will say "agak2 aman dah kot Palestine tu"

setiap kali on FB saye paling x sampai hati nak tengok gambar kanak2, org tua, n manusia2 x berdosa ni kena bunuh etc.. bukan x peduli n ramai yg kutuk tindakan saye yg x share gambar2 tu semua buat tatapan tp saye x sampai hati, idk what kind of feelings n i'm not surprise one of them is coward coz i know i am when it comes to this... my heart fell for a person who dont deserve that.. n i believe some says saye sorg yg hipokrit bercakap kat sini but never do much then that...

apa2 pun saye harap kawan2 kat sana yang terbaca belog saye ni sama2 doakan kawan2, saudara2 kita dekat sana... itu aje yg saye mintak, jujur saye bagitaw, saye bukan seorg yg baik tp saye harap rg tahu niat saye ni baik,

gambar mcm hampeh tapi buku ni lah yg krg boleh try baca - klu belum pernah 

kalau sape2 ada baca buku kekejaman Zionis (Kisah2 kekejaman Israel di Palestin ~lebih kurang tajuk dia-di published after the Mavi Marmara incident), walopun gambar2 nye x banyak, tulisan dia saje buat org menangis, i know i do cry.. saye beli buku ni masa belajar di UMS dekat 1B, terus baca masa kat bus stop before balik asrama n i swear i cry n sebab x sanggup nk sambung, saye x baca dalam bilik tp otw balik Seremban dlm flight saye baca... i am more as a reader who never put myself into the writing but walaupun buku tu x seberapa tp ada value yg tersendiri... sbb tu saye simpan sampai sekarang, x bagi org amek terus... pinjam boleh, amek terus jangan. I wish my brothers or sisters akan baca but i guess dorg prefer magazine... (*sigh*)

jujurnya isu ni makin berbekas lepas kes Mavi Marmara masa May 2010 masa Che Det cakap pasal ni dekat Malaysia Hari Ini esoknya... walaupun dulu saye sedar pasal isu ni tp sbb bnyk lagi benda saye boleh buat (mmng xde perasaan masa dulu) n risaukn, saye just jadi pengutuk kedai kopi (if u know what i mean) tp sekarg since all i do is tercangak depan TV, FB, online portal etc, baca suratkabar, tipu saye x terkesan

so saye harap kawan2 (tanpa kira apa aje fahaman politik, pegangan agama, sekolah mana, U mana, etc) put aside the differences n just consider ousrelf in their shoes for just a minute to prey for them...

that's that, papai

what i'm onto these days?

okay actually saye banyak je nak cerita...

tp rajin nye xde

walaupun berstatus CEO tanam anggur yang berjaya tp since rajin nya xde, masa pon secara baik hatinya meng'syncronize'kan diri beliau... HAHA

tapi bila tengok blog saye x berupdate rasa mcm serabut plak so saye update yang ala kadar ajela

okay btw walopun secara lahiriahnya saye x berkerja tp saye berusaha nak abeskan 1 season Grimm n Hot In Cleveland

i mean i hate when i cannot understand what happen in the next season or episode so saye pon bertekad cemerlang (motto UMS) untuk x ketinggalan... huhuhu

so okay here it is


#1 Hot In Cleveland

4 so called single girls ^^~ (Joy, Melanie, Victoria n Elka)

okay let the fact remain that i am not a fan of a series of FRIENDS yg ditayang dulu2... but although format dia lebih kurang sama macam Friends (comedy, film in front of live studio audience) and theme dia lebih kurang sama, i think this series is more laid back but not bodoh2 (not that i think Friends tu bodoh2 but for some reason which i myself dont understand i dont really like it)..

so series ni pasal 4 org so called anak dara tua (3 org dari LA n sorg dr Cleveland) tinggal serumah n mcm mana kehidupan dorg especially yg dr LA terpaksa crash landing dkt Cleveland masa dorg otw nak pegi Paris n fall in love with Cleveland.

Well to be honest sekali pun i watch the series multiple times already, i still can laugh like the comedy is still fresh n as i said the series not bodoh2 n fun to watch ^^~



#2 Grimm

Supernatural + CSI? Me love ^^!

okay Grimm ni more like Supernatural in anti-Winchester-way-of-hunting (waa gila kejam) hehe!! or senang citer kesah sorng detective yg boleh nampak creatures (the maybe-cryptozoology creature) n ancestors dia dah berabad kejenya meng-hunt down the creatures.. tapi since detective ni seorg penegak undang2 (eceh!), so dia x leh suka2 bunuh org so dia just do it by the law (-ish sometimes) n since he is the last one in his family, dia xde rujukan atau sifu melainkan diary2 lama kerabat2 dia dulu, dia berkawan dgn satu creature ni yg dipanggil Blutbud atau bahasa mudah "big bad wolf" (according to him la)

well to be honest, it was so easy to tell why i fell in love with the series, i mean i am always a legends, history, creatures, mystical buff and i am a huge fan of  Supernatural and i love procedural cop shows and this series got both of them ^^~ (not to mention, the lead actors is cute too >_<!)


so okay that's that for now
papai ^^~