the too-much-to-tell stories ^^~

okay now is 1 AM and actually i just woke up...
reason? i slept quite early 2day... around 7.30 PM (lepas isya') and so i am quite fresh i think... =P

ayah was there before doing umrah
n now he go back there with
umi to doHajji

my parents fly to Mecca 2day (around 4 AM) this morning n unlike before (my dad went there too last year), my parents doesnt sound like very happy but they sound so in peace... n i am very happy for them.. as i said on my previous entry, i know how worry they are about us (especially with adik n anis) but i think somehow angah n atin will take that responsibility... and i hope achik will grown a little n see everything as his responsibility sice he is the oldest son...

well too many things happened today... finally i told my supervisor about what i'm gonna do n even he wasnt very impressed, but at least he said YES! so i think it's quite a sign... so i can start doing what i need to do n i hope i can at least repay what  did last semester...

Blushing *wink*!!

well idk ppl know about my crushes... haha... okay i think i mentioned those guys in my fantasies like so many freakkin time HAHA!! but okay but now it's a real deal... i think i have a crush on someone (eawww!! =P) and he (what u think? LOL!!) is actually an actual human being who is not a hunter, a rock star, or even an anime doctor....okay he is a guy that i saw at the cafe today (that's that!! i tell u this much!) n yea he is a student.. which batch, course, name n everything i dont even know... n yea... i even didnt talk to him... i wonder it just a temporary or what but this is the first time i saw someone at a glance n still remember his face... n yea i need to stop before anyone puke HAHA!! =P

well after my parents got on the bus to go to airport, i called home (as i promised ayah n umi) n started to asked my siblings what they need but even angah said she'd be doing her best to make our siblings feel like home as always n i really hope that she keep her promise n yeah one thing that i'm glad is she shared her opinion with mine (n achik n atin too) n that is she would never even let anyone except her own siblings to take care of anis, adik, aiman n aimin... n i'm glad to hear that very much n i will keep my promise that i will call home everyday at least once a day ^^~ insyaALLAH


n hell YEAH!! Supernatural season 7!! okay actually i really wanna do the review quite like after i watch it but seems like i am as busy as Najib Tun Razak (haha!! gila kuasa betol!!) so i think i should at least comment a little (n give some spoiler alert to my senior- Steven HAHA!!) now

angel in trench coat
is now (before too) my
 favorite character

well gonna start to admit i love Misha Collins!! how coudnt i? he is funny as hell, good in acting, have this nerdy hot look for an angel and he played angel who wears trench coat... haha!!! well i see a lot of his side since Supernatural (from lam-pi (lambat pickup aka nerd) angel, innocent obedience son, responsible husband n daddy as human, arrogant God and latest? funny-sounded Misha-like but scary villain called Levianth-kindda methodology creature i guess) n that will make Misha as one of my favorite actor coz in just one TV show he plays human, angel, god and monster or maybe any other creatures that i didnt even think of... the Winchesters didnt... LOL (sorry Dean!! =P) n i seen him in CSIs too... funny coz he make a great accent for Russian n in Supernatural-con he made this funny accent that each time i watched it i will rolling on the floor laughing coz he is one of the funniest man on Earth... HAHA
owh.. funny coz my fav quotes not come from Dean or Cass this time but Bobby... and it goes kindda like this

 

"What we gotta do is hunt the son of a bitch. Unfortunately I lost my God guns."

-Bobby Singer-

haha!! well okay here's my review...
i say:  i LOVE this episode since i am quite (how do i put this?) pissed n hate (not quite) the season 6 finale... so i think the writers make all those things up and i'm glad even i wish they shouldnt kill Castiel (what can i say? i love that character) and i love how they brought back my favorite (hmm idk how to put this one) bad-ass horseman-Death... he is one of my  fav character (like i wish i could see him more- after Gabriel n Balthazar)... i really wish they can save Cass without killing him (i mean Cass not the vassel of Cass) but yea.. it's called Supernatural... the only characters that stays is Dean and Sam so i think that is all i could ask is dont kill Cass' vassel!! haha!!! love Bobby too ^^~
i wish: Cass didnt really die but trapped n will fight back to control his vessel... (T_T) n yea i pray for Sammy too... just want him 2 be okay... (HAHA!!)
i cant wait for next episode!! just watch episode 2 sneak peek n read about episode 3 description... gosh... CASS zapp me to the next episode please... or Doraemon will do too...huhuu!!

got new task coming my way.. one of them is being supir (again) but in UMS to help my lalink move her stuffs to her new room... RESEARCH!!!! on piezoelectric sensors... 2 weeks from now (as we speak) is my Noise n Vibration test.. i think there's more but i'll survive!! (*buat muka tabah* HAHA)

that's that!! see ya!!!

there's alot of it but i think kita letak yang "sedang2 aje"... cun jugak!!

well i totally 4got about my blog here but many things happened lately... what i do? take a deep breath, cursing,  put on my ear bud and play Breaking Benjamin's songs (kindda like let Ben curse whatever the culprit did) and move on...

so i'm in UMS now... back to the best place ever...-ish... huhuhu

no... it's not all bad.. i had a great time since i arrive and still have a great time ^^~

well i missed my family... how could i'm not missed them? umi n ayah will berangkat ke Mekkah in a week n i'm not gonna be there to sent them to airport (again...) and (AGAIN) ayah buat tahlil n makan2 kat umah but i'm not at home for 5  years STRAIGHT!!!  but the second matter wasnt as important as the 1st one so i will let it go... JIHAD bak kata ayah n ummi...

adik izzati with her scars like lanun
hehe.. but ALHAMDULILLAH
she is alright.. ^^~

well maybe this is so past year thing but my family matters always present thing no matter what and one of the things is that adik izzati had an accident.. she's playing with me and suddenly she fell... her face right on the glass cabinet n it was so bad.. her face kindda "torn" (okay... the word might be very strong but i swear that was so bad and i feel guilty as hell until now) and was hospitalized for 2 days...

and now 2 be honest i feel like my brain is like a steak (gotta say sorry coz the words might be weird but i mean it and i am kindda JK- jiwa kacau.. huhuu) and i think it is now fried... extra crispy (lapaq plok~~)

reason??

with my Lalik.. thanks for
keeping me sane here..^^~

• my FYP of course!!! 
• i need 2 upgrade my pointer.. damn serious... 
• my parents keep repeating that i need to be responsible n make them proud (not that they never felt that n not that i never felt those weight on my shoulder but..idk)
• i need to FOCUS but (this might sound crazy) but i cant take my head off of upcoming Supernatural Season 7.... (not that i am a geek but if some ppl read my previous2 entry... they should know what happen next~~~ leave the motivational movies etc3...)
• MORE UPCOMING THINGS THAT I"M VERY SURE THAT I WOULD NEVER GET AWAY WITH!!!

so i am hoping everything will be alright...

owh.. the things that bugs me more than anything in the world is my siblings... who would take care of them with no adult around.. but i always keep my game face on saying to my parents that my brothers and sisters (especially anis n izzati) will be just fine but like my parents.. i'm worried like hell... i dont trust others then my own siblings to take care of my other siblings and yea sorry if i said i dont trust others but that is the truth.. not even my grandparents, uncle, aunt or anyone... so dont bother urself to come n tell me that we are family... 

one thing that make them (those who i feel never ever will  earn my trust to take care my siblings and the one that i let Ben's "curse" them over n over) deserve that is when they told me this right on my face

" along macam mana nak ada tanggungjawab?? umi n ayah nak pegi Mekkah tapi along buat x kesah dengan kebajikan adik2... bukannya lecturer tu x paham n  bagi along amik cuti.. tapi along yang x nak kan?? nak lari dari tannggungjawab jaga adik2 kan?? bukan orang lain tu.. adik2 along jugak!! kalau susah sangat nak dapat cuti berenti belajar aje lah! xkan benda simple macam tu pon orang kena ajar?"

"umi tu patut x payah pegi lagi Mekah tu.. sapa nak jaga adik2? "

i make promise i take care of every
single one of them since i look up to
my dad like my previous lifetime n
i will keep it

so... here (even i know that person didnt read my blog but who knows right?) i really wanna say 2 u... u may say this in front of my face n act all innocent but i dont care about what u think..

 i am not responsible? maybe... but if u want me to call myself quit after 3 years of hard work (and it's my final year)... not a chance... my parents wont like it and i will not too... besides ur thought is worthless... n the things u said about my mum.?? either u are really stupid or u jealous... either way another bad press on my parents.. (i usually dont do this but this is definitely deserve exception BIG TIME) u will be facing my wrath n of course the i wish u'll burn! but thanks to some gene i got from my dad ( i wonder y u dont have it)... i will smile n rub on ur nose later on... my dad always said karma will get them...

see...i'm not that so sweet patience girl (for some reason)....

that's that... adios!!! 

the tragedy of the hair before raya...=_='

well midnight last night angah just got back from her friend's house n she told me

"along sok aku nak g salon wat rambut raya... hahaha"

so, i was like,

 "ok la 2.. aku pon dah lama nak potong rambut depan aku ni..."

and then she goes like

"alah kalau rambut depan meh aku potong.. membazir je g kedai"

i wish i have hair like Kate
Hudson

so memandangkan she done that before n i have no problem with her "work" i just agree...

well i was hoping i can get a bangs like Kate Hudson coz i LOVE her hair so much plus my hairstyle from the back kindda nearly similar to Kate Hudson just i dont have the bangs in front n of course mine is not blonde la.. hahah

then she start cutting my hair...

first at my front left....
'
'
job well done...

then  she start working at my front right n

"alamak along aku terlebih potong la!!! gila pelik dah rambut depan kau!!"

i was like

"WTH????"

 and she goes

"sorry long... gunting ni tumpul..."

i was kindda pissed so i told her to get me an appropriate hair accessories to cover my weird haircut and she told me then

seriously my bangs really look
like Hayley except
mine is black

"meh aku layerkan rambut blakang ko... ok x??"

i told her no need but she told me that it look weirder with my haircut so i take deep breath and told her

"ko buat betul-betul... kalau cam orang gila.. ko yang x raya!!" 

 and then she start doing it and she told me she got few idea so i let her do her creative side on my hair (tho i know i should regret that later) and i was hoping that layer will look like Hayley William (Paramore) at least with my weird bangs...

now my hair look like Taylor
with shorter bangs

and after she done my hair turn to be Taylor Momsen messy style hair (minus the blonde part)....
=_='
and angah goes like

"bila panjang nanti mesti cantik"

i was like yea...

"raya lagi 3 hari taw x.. rambut aku xkan panjang dalam 3 hari taw!!"

the only way my hair can be save
is to get Emma's pixie cut.. DAMN!

all i can do then is redha or i should go to salon n get Emma Watson pixie cut...
=_='

cam malas nak raye je rase...=_='

that's that for now...

 SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN ^^~ 

   

merapu meraban pt 5 (seriously i mean WTH??)

okay, before ape2 let me stress that i am not super smart people n yes i've been to one of the best school n one of the most worst school in discipline ever and i'm still in  one bigger piece so no offence that no way in hell i'm gonna admit environmental causes changes in habits n behavior...

owh i think i should quote my fav singer of all time ^^~

You know, I really don't know, because kids are obviously very easily influenced. I, myself, personally, have been playing violent video games since I was a kid, and I never wanted to blow anybody, you know, no pun intended, but I never wanted to blow anybody away. I don't think it made a difference for me whatsoever. The only thing that would make me be violent, is if somebody were violent towards me.
-Ben Burnley- 

so.. here i really like to say in my opinion...  that it's all in u... u can be who u are without blend in and spoiled... even when u're in the most worse possible environment... 

so this morning after sending my sister to school, my task is to go to the shop and buy some tauge... so at the shop, while waiting to pay i met my senior when i was 12 at my very first boarding school i've been and (guess what?) yes of course i dont even remember her face or name but funny she still remember mine n she's married n she was there with her 2 or 3 year old boy... =_='

"Nick?"

"Huh?" (at this point i thought she might mistaken me with my other siblings)

"Nick kan? Yang skolah SM** dulu kan? tapi x lama dalam 3 bulan je kau skolah situ?"

"Aha..." (then i realize she know me but clearly i dont remember her)

"Alah..akak la.. Kak Ida (i almost getting sued for revealing someone's name in my bloggie so this is as far as i can give)... yang satu dorm dulu.. ingat x?"

"Aha... ha..." (actually here i still dont LOL)

"Ape kau buat kat sini ? jauh kau bawak diri... hahha... keje ape skarang?"

"Still belaja... memang rumah kat sini.." (actually i dont really like to continue my conversation coz somehow i hate her tone)

"Belajar lagi? x habis lagi?? memang lembab jugak kau ni kan?? haha... akak dah kawin..ni anak akak.." (sambil pegang anak dia)

"oic... hi... (waving) cute..."

"akak balik rumah mak mertua... akak tak kerja dah... dok umah jaga anak pulak... hahaha! kau dekat poli lagi ke?"

"poli? mana ada..."

"ye la dari dulu kau slow... x heran la kalau kau kat poli lagi... lagipon orang bodoh je tolak tawaran dok skolah S** tu untuk masuk SM*T... hahaha"

"yea hahaha... ye la kot.."

"kau dok lorong mana?"

"ermm blakang skali... lorong 12... "

"jauh tu.. kau naik motor ke?"

"x lah drive.."

"owh.. kau boleh bawak kereta... haha biar akak mengakulah dengan kau.. masa kau pindah dari S** dulu kitorang ingat kau la manusia paling bengap sebab keluar.. tapi for sure la kitorg taw ko guna kabel nak masuk skloah tu sebab bapak ko kan "kaya" tapi akak mengaku la kitorang pernah cakap yang kitorang sure ko boleh berjaya tapi lambat dari manusia lain... kau kan manja.."

"huh?" (time ni kalau saye x pikir saye pose memang dah lama makan kaki minah ni...hihi)

"ye lah... kau tau lah kan... so rupanya kitorang betol... sampai skarang kau kat poli lagi.. ni amik sijil ke dip ni?"

"degree.."

"hah? tengok tu.. ape kau ambik pun x taw... takpe la... nanti abis la tu... poli mana kau sekarang?"

"Sabah, KK"

"jauh tu... hahha... x nangis kau kat sana?"

(senyum) "x... hmm okay lah kak saye balik dulu.. selamat berpuasa...."

so on my driving way home it really hit me" am i too fragile until i kept being bullied over and over or my patience too high that i never get mad at whatever people do to me"... it's not really i'm not pissed anyway but to let myself being treated like that sure never make my life more easier in any angle but somehow i still can stand and prove myself (and let they thinking otherwise) that everyone is wrong...

to be honest my first three month at my secondary school never been my proud moment... yes i've been to one of the most prestige school that any parents will smile when they talk about their kids who study there but somehow i felt like mentally tortured.. yes i make some friends who treated me for who i am (immature 12 year old kids with still have her "imaginary friend" all the way) and some (especially seniors) think i'm a spoiled kid that is never smart and always call home in every 3 hour.... and all i wanna do as a new kid (freshie) is to get a good grades and not causing any trouble...

and i am no rule breaker...

and i still remember that one of my seniors told me that "kau x pernah and x akan layak berjaya dalam hidup" and instead of stand up for myself i politely says goodnight... i mean, she might never meant what she said back then n i know until now up where i'm in the university, people never have confidence in me like i have on myself... i totally can see that and idk why even i constantly prove them wrong they still think that i am not capable on finishing what am i started... and guess what? i always felt like they think i am a fragile kid until now even they see it with their very own eyes that i am more than capable to accomplish my job... hmm but somehow i guess i'm not good to tell them "i told u so"

i am on my way to get
my degree ya!! so what do u
mean that i never gonna
succeed?

and after three month at that prestigious school, i begged my dad to take me out from there and he actually did coz somehow he realize i cant manage myself (yes i admit i'm not good like i am now back then) and i think parents or anyone always said that u will get smarter if u surrounded by smart people n vice versa n idk i see that a challenge or what but i told them i will never change my attitude (as a rule breaker) even i went to the worse possible school in Malaysia so my dad sent me to one of the worse school in the city where bullies n social problem were like a daily public affair in there (i think my dad kindda trust me in this that i am not easily influenced) and turn out i'm still me in one piece coz there, one of the great value they have is that they dont believe in who's smart n who's dumb... and i like it that way where i am no difference than any other.. and honestly i make a very good friend and we still talk until now... 

i proved everyone that
i can write a play ^^~

yes i'm willing to be thrown into the "dumpster" but seriously people dont realize what they might found in there... i found friendship, loyalty, determination, and more than when i am force to get inside the "gold mine" but i dont find myself any "richer" but it sure thought me to smile even in the very hard situation... my only true friend that i can trust back then is my very own diary which they stole n read n teased me with every words i wrote in there but somehow i kept all my promises in that diary and some of them is to show everyone that i can live on my own (now i am like 3 hour flight away from home), i can be in the university (yes i am now and that seniors if i am not mistaken never continue her study after STPM because she's married- source from my friend), and a few more... but seriously i owe them "big-fat-giant thank you" for making me this "not so fragile" anymore and idk why when i get to TTJ, i really wish i never met anyone like me (fragile and got bullied) for the revenge coz the cycle should end n as i said i am not a rule breaker...

well i know some people put trust in me but never put full confidence and some are so skeptical about what i will be doing but i think my best moment is when i'm at TTJ onward (KMPk n UMS)... maybe not all people see me capable but they see i have strength n somehow i know that it's good to have some people put their faith in you n u will feel like u were there or exist... that's good enough... i never bail from my responsibility ^^~

owh... i felt stupid coz i just remember actually i am off my rail after i quoted Ben earlier... supposedly what i really meant to say is that no matter how far or where u been but as long as ur "outer layer" and ur foundation is solid i guess it will never change u... i take me for an example... i still think will ever get revenge on any of those meanie back then even i live among them (yes not my entire life) but sorry dear... i just cant fit in... so somehow surrounding wasnt really a great influence for people to change (at least me)...

so that's that... papai !!! 

laughing 4 a while wont kill ur a$$

got really nothing to do n feeling like i want to update my blog here but funny thing is i have n idea on what to write...
so why dont we just laugh??


this is Spongebob Squarepants theme song in Kelantanise version... ^^~

Ready dok budok-budok?
Ho laa, kepten!
Gapo dio? HO LAA, KEPTEN!
ooo,
Podio dok dale buoh lanah bowoh laut?
Spongebob Sluar kotok!
Sene meresap bewarno kuning.
Spongebob Sluar kotok!
Kalu demo suko bendo laut hok ngarut.
Spongebob Sluar kotok!
Pah mari la pakat nopat supo ike.
Spongebob Sluar Kotok! Ready?
Sponge............bob Sluar Kkotok,(3x)
Spongebobbb Sluar kotok



and this is in Kedah version... hahaah!!!

Hampa redi dah ka weii??
Haa kapten,
Apadia?Tak dengaq nie!!
Haaa la kapten..
Ohhhh...
Sapa hat dok dalam nanaih wah laut?
"Spanbob Seluaq Petak"
Belubang,meghesap paihtu wana kunin
"Spanbob Seluaq Petak"
Kalau hampa suka benda laut hat ngarut
"Spanbob seluaq Petak"
Mai la sini teghejun cam ikan temenung
"Spanbob seluaq Petak"
REDi?
Spanbob seluaq Petak
Spanbob seluaq Petak
Spanbob seluaq Petak
Spanbob...seluaq Petak!






so enjoy ^^~

"demam (tapi yang ni x kira masa n tempat)" pt 2

tengah sebok2 tengok CSI tadi, my cousin tetiba amik remote n try cari channel len n finally dia cakap

"along ni ketinggalan la... orang tengok citer ada menda2 supernatural skunk"

(gelak sambil berlagak) "along die hard fan... tengah tunggu season baru skarang... season len sume along dah hafal"

(muka pelik) "aik?? baru brape episode klua TV along dah abes tengok satu season? advance!"

(muka cover riak) "well... they dont call me die hard fan for no reason ye! tak sabar nak tunggu season 7"

(muka extra pelik) "huh?? ye ke? bukan baru lagi ke citer tu?"

(muka berubah pelik) "xde lah.. dari along form 4 lagi citer Supernatural tu..."

(muka makin extra pelik) "eh along cakap pasal citer yang ade supernatural creature kan? Teen Wolf?"

(muka tensen) "la... along cakap citer Supernatural la..."

(muka tahan gelak) "mana ada la.. cite tu dah luput dah.. ohh cite tu wujud lagi ek??"

"(=_=')"

hehehe...actually there's no reason but then i realize i have "to-be-continued" entry called "Demam"

hmm let see... i am not a really big fan to most of the big thing on TV except few (okay..i'm gonna say it again... it's called Supernatural) but somehow i prefer this TV series more than movie, sinetron n bla bla...

so i'm talking bout US TV series ye and i think my fav oldies TV series would be The Nanny...  lama giler cite ni... kalau org x taw citer ape boleh bukak YouTube.. dulu dorang ade tayang kat Hallmark... ala.. citer pasal sorang nanny yang jaga anak sorang producer duda yang kaya n have 3 kids... the nanny ada sorang mak n nenek yang penyibuk gak.. hahaha... boleh gak dikategorikan citer ni more to comedy (n more suitable to watch with ur family or not so funny but still i can place them in family genre)... since saye jarang amek taw.. so juz ade few je citer in this genre yang saye taw like Everybody Love Raymond ngan Malcolm in the Middle, Friends, and etc... (kan saye dah kata saye x tengok all TV series in the world?? ^^)

pastu people goes to more weirder genre like magic/alien/supernatural/superpower (long story short it called fiction or sci-fi) like in magic i think the famous one is Charmed, Sabrina The Teenage Witch, Merlin, Wizards of Waverly Place and might be more that i didnt watch or know of...

 then we got alien or alien encounter or alien-like or unexplained phenomenon (not really involve supernatural ~~ u know what i mean) like X-File, Rosewell, Kyle XY, 4400, Lost and more...

check out the dude at the very
back.. he is now play Dean Winchester
hehe ^^~

and then we have supernatural like supernatural creature for real like Supernatural (my favorite as many people know), The Reaper, Buffy The Vampire Slayer,The Vampire Diaries, True Blood, Angel, Ghost Whisperer and mooorreee and paling baru wat saye gado2 ngan my cousin..Teen Wolf...hahaha... memula i think (my observation aje ye) people love heroes (human) not monster.. see example.. up until Supernatural, the main focus is the slayer (or in Dean and Sam case they were called hunter) but these days after Twilight book was a hit, they change the strategy putting monsters as the new hero like vampire and new one warewolf (sorry never mean to call them monster but anyone who have proper words lemme kno yeh?? ^^~)

and then we have superpower or superhuman like Smallville (might be categorize in alien too if u like so be my guess ^^~), Kyle XY (this too), Mutant X, Heroes, Dark Angel and more... well the correct term might be superheroes but WTH? this is mii freakin blog ^^~ huhuhu but u guys feel free to put them in any order u like... i just place them based on my opinion...

then of course we have cop show! one of my fav... err i think crime series might be better... whatever u feel like go ahead... call it whatever u want.. ^^~ we have one of the famous called CSI: Crime Scene Investigation (Vegas), CSI: Miami, CSI:NY, Numb3rs, NCIS, Blue Bloods, Leverage, Chuck, Hawaii-Five-O and this kind is ssoooo much on TV.. pick ur fav... mostly when ppl talking about TV series (unlike me) they prefer to mention crime show first (from what i observe)

this is Gilmore Girls and see the
guy on the right (no 34)
he plays Dean back then n
now he is Sammy Winchester ^^

and then we have this kindda all girlie2 or kindda high school not so heavy conflict n "happy-family" like Gossip Girl, 90210, Gilmore Girl, Glee, SATC, Life Unexpected, Hannah Montana, iCarly, Lizzie McGuire, Desperate Housewives and there might be more that i didnt know (never really a fan for this genre) and again... take ur pick ^^~ but honestly for this kind of genre i prefer to watch movies.. idk y movies more appealing 

owh did i mention the doctor show?? haha.. we have House, Grey's Anatomy, ER, Scrubs and again.. might be more that idk... dont really like to watch doctor show but i do watch House... he's funny LOL but yes!! my fav doctor would be Dr Black Jack (Hazama Kuroo) which shame coz he cannot be in my TV hit list coz he is an anime (T_T) but it's okay ^^~ i still adore that weird doctor hehehe!!!  

so that's all peeps but if ppl ask me what is my fav (i know ppl know my all time fave) are Supernatural, The Nanny, Mutant X, Dark Angel, Leverage, Life Unexpected, CSIs, n might be more to come but like anybody else i have my own choice or taste so i think that's all

p/s: selamat berpuasa... ^^~ papaii!!!

All Hell Breaks Loose pt 1 (Not Really A Supernatural Version)

okay 1st of all i suffer form bad diarrhea and gastric due to
1) taking coke without anything 4 buka puasa (i know i have terrible gastric history but cant help it.. i just love coke)
2) bad fish curry for sahur for a next day...

so obviously i had this stomach cramp all day (until now it's like 2 days) and i cant move, stand. sit and even each time i lied down i feel this sharp white hot pain all over my tummy...

okay and this is the 1st time i put the title 1st before writing anything so for those who never watch Supernatural or dont even remember which episode, here's the recap but not full la (copy paste dari website tv.com jak)

Sam and Dean arrive at a diner to get supper and when Sam goes in, the radio malfunctions. Dean notices that Sam has disappeared from inside the diner and goes in to find several corpses but no sign of Sam. He notices sulfur and realizes demons are involved.
Sam wakes up in an abandoned ghost town and runs into Andy, and neither one of them know what’s going on. They hear a woman screaming and go to investigate and find Ava, who thinks it’s been only two days since she last saw Sam and Dean, when it was actually five months ago. They find two other people, Jake and Lily, and determine they’re all age 23 and have psychic powers, and Sam tries to explain a demon brought them together.
Dean meets with Bobby who reports there hasn’t been any demonic signs or omens. They call Ash who says he has something big and wants them there, and they head out.

my fav part in AHBL pt 1 siyes
jujur asye nangis jugak!!

Dean and Bobby arrive at the road house only to find it burnt to the ground, Ellen missing, and Ash dead. Meanwhile, something is stalking Lily through the woods, while Sam and the others realize she’s missing. They go outside and find Lily dead, hanging from a windmill. Andy tries to use his powers long-distance to send images to Dean of the town, as well as a picture of Sam. Bobby figures out the location of the town from the landmarks Andy projected.
Later they take refuge together but the yellow-eyed demon appears to Sam and says he’s rooting for Sam, and that they’re all in a competition. The demon has set up much of Sam’s life to get him out on the road and trained, although the death of his mother wasn’t intentional. It shows him a vision of how it fed its blood to Sam as a baby. Sam’s mother came in and recognized the demon and it killed her. Sam wakes up to find out Ava’s missing. They go out to search but Ava comes back to confront Andy after breaking the salt line. The demon-girl comes in and kills him as Ava looks on.
Ava screams and Sam and Jake arrive to find her standing over the body. She gives them a cover story but Sam wonders who broke the salt line. He quickly figures out she’s responsible and she confesses what she’s been doing and that she’s been killing the other children as they arrived over the last five months. Worse, she’s developed her powers further and can summon demons, and calls the demon back, but Jake arrives to break her neck. But he tells Sam the demon appeared to him and he has no choice but to kill Sam so he can get close to the demon and kill it. Jake comes after Sam who manages to defeat him and prepares to kill him. Bu Sam can’t bring himself to do it. Bobby and Dean arrive just as Jake stabs Sam and runs off. Sam dies in Dean’s arms.

but this entry got nothing to do with demons or psychic children or competition or omen sign or anything supernatural but just what happened...

so on that morning, after i woke up n had my sahur n subuh prayer, i watched Supernatural the Anime and i watched 2 back-to-back last two episodes (All Hell Breaks Loose pt 1 and pt 2) followed by Supernatural season 3 episode 18 (No Rest For The Wicked)
and today my parents went out to Tabung Haji leaving me and my siblings at home and after watching Tarzan on Disney's Channel (with all pain) with adik Izzati, she went to my sis, Atin and i went back to my room to take some rest.. and after few moments, Atin went into my room and screamed

"Along!! Adik mana??"
"Bukan dia ngan kamu ke?"
"Takde lah"
(me screaming to Anis in the bathroom) "Anis!!! Adik mandi dengan kamu ke??!!"
"Mana ada!! kan Adik dah mandi tadi!"
"Mana si Izzati ni??!!"

macam x bersalah je buat orang riso!!

i went out n found the gate is opened and then i realized she might went out... Atin took our dad's motorcycle n went around the neighborhood n came back crying that she couldnt find her... she went to her friend's house n asked if she saw Adik Izzati around but when her friend said no, i took the bike n went to look everywhere include in the drain while kept praying i found her waiting for me at the playground or somewhere before our parents got back....
after like half an hour i went back to house n Anis told me Adik is no where to be found n i started to called Angah... Angah took her bike n started to look around too and we went into every alley, looked into any house which had their gate opened, playground, drain (big and small) and i must say i went everywhere around the neighborhood...
an hour later, i came back and saw Adik with Angah on her bike and Atin claimed a kid had sent our lil sis home.. i asked  who the kid but she said she had no idea but i cant thank Allah or the kid enough... idk what will happen if we still havent found adik... world will be a disaster and i will feel guilty for the rest of my life....
Alhamdulillah...

well okay, now what Supernatural have to do with my story just now?? hehehe... i just feel like it... i mean i watched All Hell Breaks Loose pt 1 and saw how Dean went nearly nuts about Sam's disappearance n look everywhere... make me feel like i play Dean Winchester back then (huhuhu) and of course adik is Sam... hahha
the difference is Adik is not Sam who have psychic power that can sent images to where she'd be on that time, she definitively not with any of her psychic friends, no demons involved (kan bulan pose.. sume setan kena ikat), i'm using my dad's motorcycle (Kriss) instead of Impala, and (sigh in relief) she not die in my arm (simpang malaikat la...)

back then when she wasnt really good
at breaking all the rules ^^~

but seriously, i really wish i can meet the kid and thank him personally.. i really appreciate and there's a lesson in this.. since Adik Izzati is not a normal-thinking kid, we never know what was or is in her mind and all i know she wants to break free which is not safe for her....my sisters, brothers and i should be careful and nex time no matter what, we should at least make sure the gate is fully locked up... ^^~

that's all folks.... selamat berpose!!! adios papai !!