observations...

well busy giler sekarang
lebeh gile dari time study dulu
so maafkanla saye yang dah jarang nak update pasal Supernatural nih...
sangat susah nak concentrate bila tengok sebab badan dah penat, my mind is almost dying n oddly enough my will almost sinking but still saye masih cuba ikhlaskan diri pikul amanah dalam mencari rezeki halal (eceh)

tapi saye x pernah miss 1 episode pon lagi ye ^^~ HUHUHUUUU

for those yg x taw, saye dah berkerja dlm bidang customer service

n yea i know memang xde kaitan langsung dgn ape yg saye amek masa kat UMS dulu

so bila dah kerja macam ni n menghadap pelbagai jenis manusia, saye boleh simpulkan beberapa benda

# rakyat Malaysia x suka terima perubahan walaupun baik
      kat sini memang saye nampak sangat2... nak2 orang2 yg berumur.... well dorg tak percayakan perubahan n takut kalau perubahan tu merosakkan/rugikan dorg...
yes i understand the paranoia that Malaysian have.. but tho they see the prove that the change wasnt so bad n actually improved their life n make things easier, they dont accept change... some were skeptical, some were hesitate n some were NEVER WANT to accept... kadang2 kita pulak yang dimarah walaupun kita actually try to help

# rakyat Malaysia malas membaca n menulis
      no offence peps, before this i myself feel offended by the statement but then i see it with my own freakin eyes... kalau pakcik2 n makcik2 yang dah tua tapi x nampak ni saye faham jugak, ni yang masing2 i/c dorg depan dia 90, 91, 92...etc
kadang2 annoying pulak rasa sbb bila dorg mintak tolong isikan form sebab x suka pegang pen n malas nak  menulis... n bila suruh baca terms n conditions dorg suruh jugak terangkan sebab malas nak baca then pertikaikan almost everything...

#rakyat Malaysia sangat sinis bila kedudukan dia lebih tinggi dari org lain
      okay yang ni x semua but enough to say yang it happens a lot to me as i am so stupid... i mean i admit i am new but it is so annoying (n sometimes i feel insulted) when they say "baik u confirmkan betul2... selalunya trainee ni bodoh"
walaupun some might cut me some slack but sangat annoying n it's getting on my nerve bila org start panggil someone else whe assist them bodoh...

#rakyat Malaysia selalu anggap bila bertanya means BODOH
        i'm sorry for asking people alot coz it's my job.. i am not some mind reader do know anyone so that's why i ask... but all i got back either "you ni tahu buat kerja ke tak", "i dont like stupid question" etc...
belum masuk yang dengan sinis nya pertikaikan sape saye... memang irritating sangat

#what they wear doesnt reflect who n what they are
         again i'm sorry... i dont judge people from their appearance but usually u always processing some impression on how they look like when someone wearing jubah n serban, ur first impression must thinking he is might be polite, cakap lembut n nice... i mean let put aside if i find the "nur" on that person face
but then it turns out to be he curses everyone alot, leave insulting comments n nothing is nice about it...
again i am so sorry for bring this things up

i think there might be more but right now this is all come out.. maybe there's part 2 coming... who knew?

well that's that
papai

be careful of what u not wish for..

well i am not human behavior observer tho i am surrounded by humans... senang cakap i am really born into the society and raised in many societies but i guess i'm proud to say i am not easily got influenced by them..

from the beginning i always so sure with all i want to be, have aim and tho most of the time i always on the right track, i always get back on one... at least..

one of my drawings ^^~ (dikala bosan di kelas BI)

lately, i feel like i am very lost and realize i might get into the wrong train (now i am really poetic person kan? kan?).. i mean when i was little, art is always my passion (who would have thought right?) especially i am always love to draw, making myself creative n challenge myself to express new perspective so that when i decided to become a writer... but when it comes after PMR, since being not so smart looking is not an option, literature course is not an option. At 1st i was placed at pure science stream class but since idk physics better back then, i think my life would be over n since society always standardize art student as no vision n future (it's not really my opinion) and when i look at the other option, i decided to go to technical school to learn engineering drawing to become an architect coz it's one smart looking way to express creativity n my idea... i know i might have narrow view before but i consider myself as a field rat than a lab mouse so that's how that goes...

then time pass by, n i still want to be an architect but i guess i might slipped from my own rail leaving me with physics. weird right? so, then i get to know physics, doing research and everything, i think physics is another creative thinking path (in a nerd way according to my brother) n i decided to continue playing with the physics idea using my own method to discover gigantic thingy like the mystery behind the sound of aurora or become the next Stephen Hawking.

but then the fact remains i have my own goal, but i dont strive hard for it.... i made an option coz it's not the 1st time anymore so it's really never considered as a mistake...

after graduate, i still want to be a field mouse, working outside the office n not really tied by the formal attire rule but then again, i stranded in the island of the opposite..  not that i say my job is frustrating but the fact remains that i dont really enjoy being caged...

i know i should be grateful, at least i have a job but i guess when ppl said graduan terlalu memilih, i guess i am one of them... n as ummi said alah bisa tegal biasa so i try to do my best... yela, kan ke itu amanah untuk saye?

tetiba emo pulak kan?

okayla..
that's that
papai! ^^!

Time-Traveled Dude... LOL i just love Dean ^^~

i just watched Supernatural S08E12: As Time Goes By, which btw i think is so SUPER-AWESOME!!

well i dont want to be some spoiler alert giver but i must say one of my favorite aspects in Supernatural is time travel. i mean i see the Winchesters (mostly Dean) travel through times, future and past but it's one of best part of this episode is that i get to know the oter Winchester.

((to play logic now i know where young John Winchester got his good looks n how he passed that look to present Dean =P)) huhuuuuu

okay, 1st time we see time travel in Supenatural is when Cass zapped Dean back to pass where he wasnt even born in season 4 n unlike season 4 or 5 or 6 or 7... this season doesnt involve Dean or Sam to any past or future.. it's another Winchester... guess what? their grandfather! i thought the Winchester that i will see is John and Adam and of course the brothers since unlike their mother side who actually a born as hunter, the Winchester is the regular American that fill the i-dont-believe-in-supernatural population... but well did i mention the writer is waaayyy too creative (in the way i like tho)? Henry Winchester is not a hunter but he is in a (good side? idk) society (maybe secret) that also related to supernatural thingy... he time traveled from 1950(-ish?) and landed in Dean n Sam's motel closet in 2013.... the rest goes.... (nah... i wont tell, dont want to ruin the fun ^^~)

but i really have questions tho which maybe be answer later... =_=

and who knew the funny-sarcastic thingy that Dean had in him actually run in the family ^^~ LOL

"2013? My God. I guess Mayans were wrong..."

-Henry Winchester

fun fact: i always re-watch the Supernatural season finale after i watch it but the most watched episodes always be when the time traveled thingy happen in Supernatural

The list of episodes based on time-travel on Supernatural (up until S08E12):
# S04E03: In The Begining
# S05E04: The End
# S05E13: The Song Remain The Same
# S06E18: Frontierland
# S07E12: Time After Time
(maybe there's other that i missed)

the essence of this post is actually how much i love when i got to meet the other brother's family ^^~

nice rite?

btw the pic source is from BuddyTV

annoying (but i want to congrats Angah too) moment - feels like i want to drop F bombs everywhere :P

well things are started to get messy these days, first n foremost, ppl love to ask me when will i get married since i already get what i wanted (wearing topi kotak duhh!!) n angah already engaged to her boyfriend...

well truth to be told, since angah is about to get married, she kindda become the center of everything (i mean the adult stuffs - please dont read this in x-rated way btw) n since i am the oldest child in my family, getting left 1 step behind really an awkward moment. not that i'm jealous with her but idk, it probably the eldest thing - being left as unimportant is sucks!

i mean, i love my sometimes-i-live-in Peter Pan-world but it getting on my nerve lately on how ppl compare me with my sister n cousins who somehow sooner-or-later will follow angah's footstep on introducing their so-i-hope-with-my-finger-crossed soul mate. some are two years older than me n some are 5 years younger... i mean i just 23 for crying out loud! my parents dont say anything but when it come to society n "families", i kindda manusia x laku... just because i dont get home at 3 am every morning with any guys n continue "bertenggek" depan rumah doesnt mean i dont have social life

yeah, i dont socialize much like any teenagers but i never feel the need to do that, to me the right guy will come at the right time...

there's one incident where me n some ppl talking about how many guys she meet everyday n she kindda interviewed them n then one of the ppl said to her

"kenalkan la untuk along!"

and she kindda look at me ups n downs in (maybe i'm wrong but i could've sworn the way she looked at me) disgusted then she change the topic

i mean, yeah i'm no Miss World n when i said i'm waiting for Ben Burnley it just mean i'm kidding?

fine i wasnt perfect n tho they make a joke on my social life saying i might die alone it still hurts coz i have feelings too! i'm not Cass, i'm human okay!

as i said before i just 23, some ppl getting married at 50 so what's the big deal? i got family to be taken care of! Adik Izzati to be taken care of!

i might be single but i'm not desperate, so back off!

that's that

no need to get nasty dropping the F bombs everywhere...

so btw congrats Angah n her fiance, may both of u live happily ever after

papai

meeting long lost friend

well before everything, lemme clean this blog that full with spider's webs...

*clean*

*clean*

*clean*

*clean*

okay.... hope that's ok ^^~ hehehe

well actually i dont feel like writing much so lemme just show a pic n tell a lil this n that bout the pic

that's me n my ex-roomate, Kinah... nice optometrist (betul ke term ni Kinah?) to-be. Well story goes bila saye kena attend job interview like early in the morning with no preparation coz i really dunno i have a job interview until 2 hour before the interview *nice huh?*

so i just grab whatever look formal attire to me, my certificates n resume (n hoping i got the copy of them somewhere in the file) makeup in my handbag, n ready to go (by bus coz KL traffic is always a nightmare to me -no wonder i hate KL).. i put on my makeup in the bus n ran to Menara TM but the thing is idk anything or what position i'll be interview later on... all i know is i have to be there before 9 am

then this is when viva-moment-with-no-preparation came... just go with the flow... do or die... yada yada whatever

so waiting for my name to be called, i text my friend Kinah n lalink Anis (she didnt reply or pick up the phone until i'm in the komuter back to Seremban) n ask Kinah if she want to meet coz i didnt see her for almost 2 years n she said ok n we agreed to meet at Mid Valley Megamall

then after that, we went window shopping, makan2 (u know what happen when (very) long lost friend sit for lunch), jalan2, n then it's time to say goodbye again

to Kinah, thanks for meeting me, memang rindu Kinah sangat2 n hopefully next time Aisyah, Nisa n Izzati boleh join sekali ^^~

friendship forever ^^~

okay that's that, papai

the makeup lesson

After 2 weeks membebel akibat kemalasan saye keluar bersama-sama, akhirnya saye ikut jugak Marjorie n Leeya keluar walaupun malas masih bersarang... almaklumla, mood bermalasan masih tinggi

pagi kemarin bersamaan hari Jumaat, Marjorie datang jemput saye dengan keta baru (ayah dia bayar... hehe) dia.. memula banyak jugak alasan saye, lagipun, still pukul 0830... kami pon pegi kedai mamak

#FunFact: Marjorie sentiasa makan nasik lemak pagi2 tanpa miss walau sekali =P

rupa2nya Leeya dah tunggu, mesti dorg ni ada plan nih.. #hampeh sungguh main ambush saye pagi2..

sambil makan, masing2 mula bercerita, btw, Marjorie nak sambung belajar n Leeya pun sama just part time la... sambil2 tu Leeya merungut pasal budak2 ofis dia yang sangat2 suka merendah-rendahkan chubby-type girl mcm Leeya

kata Leeya

"aku taw la aku ni gemuk, tapi kenapa bila aku pakai make-up diorg kata aku salah tempat keje? bukannya tebal sangat makeup aku pakai"

for the record, Leeya x pernah pakai makeup bila pegi mana2 except compact powder n lip balm aje

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well Heidi can pull on w/o makeup and just walk outside n still
look pretty rite?

so, moral citer ni bukan saye nak blabbing about stop being such a jerk coz i believe i have posted about this like loooonnnggg ago but the make-up thingy...

to me, full on make-up face either tebal or not is subjective

simple equation, kalau org tu dah biasa pakai makeup, they will think (walaupun tebal) it just normal, not too much but kalau org x pernah pakai makeup, calit lipbalm pun dorg kata mcm joker (villain citer Batman ye)

saye teringat masa saye 15, at my young age, i dont get exposed much on makeup and one time i just put on some body powder at my face (super thin layer) n ppl start saying i do look different wearing makeup tho i actually just put some body powder, but now, tho i' wearing makeup, unless i go for crazy rave color of eyeshadow or super thick eyeliner, my ummi will goes, "cubala kamu pakai bedak sikit!! bukannya kamu budak2 lagi"

so temanya, just be u,

coz bila org yg x biasa pakai makeup, bila dia pakai, org akan cakap macam pakai topeng coz somehow she herself feel awkward with the her condition n kalau org terbiasa pakai makeup, bila x pakai makeup, org akan tegur muka dia pucat n everything...

susah kan nak puaskan mata semua orang?

so the lesson here is to hell with how people think of u

coz i always think that confident is always the best outer layer any girls can wear weather u with makeup or not

tebal or not the makeup to me is subjective

some ppl says they go with natural look but since other ppl cant see the process behind them, they might dont know how many layer of foundation, compact powder, concealer, loose powder etc they put on

i'd say this coz one of my friend, is so lucky coz she have the exact same shades of foundation and powder to her skin which many dont have including me. one time we want to go out together and while waiting for her to get ready, i actually saw her ongoing makeup process. well honestly, a pretty well flawless that look like dont-need-much is actually need way too many things to be done

and she ended up with effortless makeup job and she look natural tho it too almost half and hour to get ready

i mean i take like half an hour to put on makeup alone too so i told her why she need 30 minutes to look like just what u already look like?

so that's that
papai ^^~

sume gambar adalah dari pakcik gugel

unreasonable RM10

panas je hati!!

jarang saye beli makan pagi sejak saya balik ke tanah air (hehe) 

yela, klu kat KK, confirm2 la nak breakfast x sempat coz bangun2 je kena lari g kelas (pukul 10) 

tapi as my job is babysitting my sis at the hospital, i have to get myself breakfast

since idk where is the nearest cafeteria in this hospital, i went a little further outside the hospital area

menunggu dengan penuh sabar

so i bought my breakfast at mamak stall 

the wait for the food i ordered? like waiting for Dr Black Jack snapped out the anime world and ask me to be his Pinoko (minus the short figure)... owh btw i wast even ordered a steak that everybody know takes years to cook... i just ordered a friggin fried noodle n iced nescafe 

yet it took almost 1 hour and half to get my friggin breakfast and only 3 ppl in the restaurant..

then what shocked me more is that the overall price is RM10!!!

i mean WTF???

sabar ajela

if i knew i should just go and eat KFC or wait till i get home =_='

okla that's that

papai